Beyond me

I have discovered that I would  thrive or be catatonic if I were imprisoned... one of those two extremes. These last 4 months in lockdown have been normal with a sharp edge to it; I'd be going about my day normally and think of a place to go "Well, that's closed down". I'd watch a TV show and they'd have a huge gathering and it would seem quaint how close together everyone is. Life day to day is similar to before so I am okay, I'm even learning new skills, but I cannot quite grasp how big this might end up being.
Now I know change takes time, and maybe life will go back to what it once was, but there is a real chance life has changed forever. That is what my mind can't quite grasp. It's been only 4 months in quarantine yet so much has changed and I can't quite fathom what is to come or how life will be day to day...it's a big blank calendar. Will birthdays just be cards in the mail and a delivered cake? Will Caroling return to the streets this Christmas? I can just picture Tiny Tim and Scrooge reenactments to come. How about drive through gift giving, do we slingshot gifts at our loved ones?
My point being that it's unsettling, the not knowing. The earliest a vaccine will arrive is January, but more likely a year from now (June). A year in our house...my mind just cannot quite grasp it or what the world will look like when we emerge.
- all the businesses that will disappear
- all the people out of work
- a government that seems disinterested in a 6 day solution when we need a 6 month solution to how people will pay their mortgages and rent...MILLIONS evicted just cannot happen

My brain just can't quite grasp it. It's too big. Also, can we really lock our doors for that long and successfully avoid getting sick?

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