Death, and changes

Congressman John Lewis died today, not of COVID however he is one of the people I felt was invincible and death could not touch. Sadly I was mistaken.

Alphonse de Lamartin:

Sometimes, only one person is missing, and the whole world seems depopulated.

 

In our house we are anxious, to look at us you would not know it, but it's there. My husband seems like his usual self but he gets flashes of anger erupting at odd times. My husband is a sweet and joking guy, always looking to make others laugh, but he's been clearly stressed. I keep baking and cleaning, as if those activities will somehow ward off any virus that would dare attack. We'll be going along our day at home and everything feels okay, and then my husband will get a bit snippy, or I realize we are out of something we normally have in stock and I realize it's pointless to ask for things that may not be in stock until the pandemic is over.

Also my husband rarely drinks. He is perfectly happy with having maybe 3 alcoholic beverages in a year. Me? I like to have one every other night because it calms my anxiety and eases the pain in my hip so I can sleep. I have talked to others who are eating their way through the pandemic, and still others who can't control their anxiety.

The anxiety is there below the surface, and we all have our own coping mechanisms.