Mirages

 To a certain extent life feels fairly fake. On the one hand most of day to day life is somewhat normal, and then something happens and you are reminded "Oh yeah, the Pandemic".

Today we are on a statewide stay at home order, which means businesses can only be open for pick up, and everything deemed non-essential is basically shutting down. Business owners are terrified, and rightly so....but this is happening globally, there is no escaping the virus to save their business or any other one. We can do pick ups, so we will do our best to *try* to support local small businesses this holiday season.

This also means we are likely spending Christmas and New Years at home...just us...like every other day this year. I miss family, I miss browsing stores, I miss spontaneity. Now every action from putting on a mask to where we cannot go is a carefully choreographed routine.

Yes, vaccines are coming. The first to receive them starts in a few days. For the average person the wait will last until April or even June perhaps. While we have managed to stay home since March, somehow this new date feels so far off that it might as well be like trying to walk across a continent barefoot.

For today I am safe. For today I am grateful. For tomorrow I am a bit apprehensive

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